POST 2

I am quite confused as to where my life is going. I don't know where I would be 5 years from now. But I want to change all that, as they say “only the dead fish swims with the river”, I don't wanna let everything happen to me, I wanna make things happen instead.

I want to change how people see me. I want to change how people feel about me. I want to change myself, maybe not for good but for the sake of not getting hurt and feeling the pain every single moment. I wanna change all that happened to me in the last couple of years.

I used to think how lucky I was, but I know now i'm in fact the unluckiest man alive. Un-lucky since there's no-one who loves me, no one to stand by my side when times would be grey. I thought I had everything in life but thats not the truth.

I'm all alone in this big world. Alone even though there are prolly few hundred people I know and who I care about. But it seems there's no one who cares about me. Theres not a single person in the world who can understand how I feel. I'm not just another face on this earth. I have an identity of my own. And I want people to accept me as I am. I am tired of being just a shoulder for other people, I want a shoulder too. I want someone who would cry with me someone I can share my secrets, feelings with..

Tears may not show up on my eyes but its my heart which cries tears of blood, there's not a single day I don't feel lonely, dejected. People just keep taking advantage of me, and I know they don't really care about me.

I hope there's someone out there who would understand me and like me for what I really am. Someone who would love me truly. I hope I meet that someone really soon because I can't take this loneliness no-more. I think I would be gone forever if things remain the same.

I try hard to love life, but I forget that its in the movies where people can forget about all the pains and move on with their life. In reality that don't happen.

I HOPE PEOPLE BEGIN TO LOVE ME.

POST 1

Love happens only once, n i'm a bit unfortunate in this case. I think i'll not get the love that I want, atleast not in this lifetime. But one thing is for sure – I'll always love her... i'll love her till I die and even after that.

I can and most prolly will spend the rest of my life withmemories of her. I know that would hurt a lot, but that pain would remind me of her.

I'm not crazy or anything. I'm just a simple guy stuck in a complicated world. People say i've changed but they donot realize that i'm still the same and thats its them who have changed. All I want is someone I can trust. Someone I can spend my life with. Someone who loves me.....someone I love. Someone who would stand by my side no matter what happen. Someone who will love me for who i'm and not for what i'm not. I donot want to be alone anymore. Its hurts a lot.

Don't I deserve some happiness too. Why is it that its always me who have to make sacrifices. I've sacrificed a lot and I donot have anything left with myself.....not even my soul. I dont want to the graveyard all alone and no-one weeping for me. I want people to miss me when i'm gone.

Why am I a stanger to myself, I know whats happening to me and what i'm doing is wrong but even then I keep on doing that. I'm not a fool but then why do I act so foolish? I know i'm not good enough and that i've committed so many mistakes